thursday thursday thursday

so today my sister is coming into town.. im so excited
and tonight im gonna work out i didnt do it tues or wed so tonight im definately doin it
all the goals i made for the week i failed so im thinkin im gonna try one goal a week lol
man i like blogging
its like acceptable talkin to myself
so i was thinkin the other day groups in facebook i would become a fan of:
1) its not talkin to myself... its thinking out loud! lol
2) im not fat.. im fluffy lol
3) im a hater lol
i had more but it was late at night
and i always seem to have the best ideas late at night
and im always the braviest about what i want to do late at night
like i swear in the middle of the night i want to get piercings(but im too scared) and tattoos(but they will hurt)
its like my normal self falls asleep and my brave self comes out
i get all these ideas in my head that keep me awake sometimes
so i know im a negative person but i really am trying harder to be positive and stuff but sometimes its just hard
i think when you havent liked yourself almost your whole life(either mentally physically whatever) its hard to be a postive person
but im gonna try harder i want to like myself
i want to feel better
i want these things so i just have to keep in mind this is my journey
and this journey big steps wont do i have to take baby steps until im strong enough to do it
like i said i wont have pop and guess what thats all i want or fast food or whatever
so no more nos
just positives like ill drink more water
so im gonna try it that way
tonight im gonna work out and its gonna be fun and ill get some of my workout challenge for the week done
im very excited about this challenge
i just need to learn how to stay positive
cuz i do have issues w/ anxiety and depression
i just have to find a way to fight it that isnt sleeping and eating
maybe working out should be my new addiction since the casino is too expensivie lol
well today is day one
i think everyday i fail im gonna go back to day one
lol
today is the first day of the rest of my life
im gonna look up some positive quotes