hungry

I am HUNGRY
but it is 11:30pm and i dont want to eat this late
so im tryin to just get my mind off of it by posting a blog
you see i have a cake on my kitchen table that is calling my name
it really is but im not gonna do it
i need to start taking steps more seriously like not eating after 9pm
its bad for you
so im just writing about how hungry i am and how much i really want that cake
but instead when im done w/ this im going to get up and get an 8 ounce glass of water and im goin to bed
i love sleep too you see so hopefully sleep will win
no not hopefully
i can do this
the cake is the devil and im not giving in lol
instead im gonna drink some water pee take my contacts out and go to bed
tomorrow im hopin that i can get to the y and work out maybe
maybe my babys dad will be off work early and can watch him so i can go work out
i really want to start getting active but its so hard
i really have zero motivation
so im just gonna think of my little goals just daily goals
so lets see what should tomorrows goals be
i think 3 is a good number for goals
1) eat healthy breakfast (im thinking a banana)
2) drink water (not pop)
3) NO FAST FOOD
you see im a foodie i love food but most of the time the bad stuff
but tomorrow im gonna do good
especially since this weekend i already know im gonna do bad lol
cuz im drinkin
i need it and im gonna do it
then i think starting monday
cuz sunday i need to recover
starting monday im going to do good im gonna go to gnc and get that body cleanse stuff
and im gonna work out and drink water and eat more fruits and veggies
i can do it
im strong
lol
talkin to myself again
so tomorrow
no fast food no pop and eat a healthy breakfast
and tonight get up drink some water pee go to bed
i can do this
i just keep tellin myself this and i will be able to right?
it does work right?
lol
who knows but im giving it a try
i would absolutely love to lose some weight and just feel better about myself
sometimes i dont think its possible but im gonna give it a try
so i have decided i like this blogging thing even if it is like im talkin to myself
after all i talk to myself anyway
lol
so what difference does it make
also
i need to make a to do list for next week
i need to find a job
bad i get bored being home
i feel useless
i hate that feeling it makes me want to sleep and eat lol
who am i kidding i just love food i dont need a reason to eat only that it tastes good
so my goal is to find something i love more than food
not my son though cuz i need an activity
something more active than reading
maybe it will be blogging
everytime i really want something to eat maybe i will just blog about it
maybe that will stop me
who knows
so now its time for water pee and bed lol