plans foiled

so today i was going to work out w/ my friend and i couldn't because of my darling little brat.(lol)
he was too tired to go anywhere he would have been a cranky butt and i cant have someone watching my child when he is being like that especially someone i dont know.
but anyway i still exercised i did my wii lol
not as good of exercise as working out at the y but thats ok, at least i did soomething
like i keep telling my mom i am takin steps even if they are baby steps lol
my arm is sore from bowling on the wii but thats ok i take it as a good sign that i actually moved
i called my work because i had been of the schedule for 3 weeks and i talked to the owner and she tells me no we dont need you we are too slow and i told her why didnt you tell me 3 weeks ago i could have been looking for another job. stupid stupid woman
i showered today i always love my shower love to feel so fresh and so clean clean lol
man blogging seems difficult for me and i cant seem to figure out why its not like i dont talk non stop but i guess when it comes to typing its different
maybe its because i know no one is really gonna read this and its like im talking(typing) to myself lol
or maybe its cuz i have tried journalling before and i quit lol i did like 10 pages and ripped them up cuz i was scared someone would read my thoughts lol
ive always been a quitter... i quit band( the band teacher put her mouth on my clarinet) i quit batons( i had to wear a bathing suit in public!)i quit taekwondo(why i dont know) i quit 9th grade (lol i went back though i just couldnt stand the ppl that year) i quit college( too hard ive always been the type that school came easy and i barely had to try)
but now i have a reason not to be a quitter... my son i want to be around for him so have to get in better shape and i HAVE to go to college... i want to show him that being a quitter isn't the right way to do things.
i want to show him if you work hard and are a good person that good things happen to you
i want to be the best possible mom ever even if im doin it by myself
my goals with him are simple
to love him unconditionally
to teach him to be polite
to teach him how to treat other ppl (the golden rule)
to always let him know his family is there for him no matter what
actually i lie its all complicated there is so much grey in life i dont know
but i just want him to be a well adjusted adult
i know teen years are gonna suck but hopefully it wont be too bad after all its not like ill have a teen girl(the dreaded girl lol)
my son is so amazing
he really amazes me every single day
sometimes when im feeling really bad he just looks at me and smiles and his whole face lights up and it just makes me feel better
but i will save that for another blog im gonna make a nice long one about how wonderful great and amazing my son is lol
ill put a warning mommy bragging
and mommys partial
my baby is the cutest smartest brightest ever and dont you forget it or try to argue w/ me cuz you will lose lol
but like i said im partial
my eyeball itches it sucks
i hate when that happens
i wear contacts and im blind
sad but true
i hate it one day i want lasik
but its expensive and scary
man im hungry
but i dont want to eat
cuz its not time yet
i have to make dinner for me and bratty boy but he is napping(thank god!) he is super cranky
well im going to watch private practice
i absolutely LOVE that show